It's Monday. Usually I'm pretty optimisitic, especially since there are only 4 days left until spring break.... but things are PILED up. I don't know how I'm going to make it through Thursday at noon (when things should tame down again).

It's just one of those days where.... I can't see anything happy. I was stressed ALL day about a Sight Singing II test I had to take at 7. 3 hours of my day were spent in the practice room just trying to make sure I was prepared enough... and luckily, I was. That was the only happy part of the day.

Tomorrow, I have a philosophy test. And then I need to study all night (pretty much) for my Humanities test that I have to take on Wednesday. I have to do well on this test... I did well on our first test, and then not so well on the second, so my grade is really in jeopardy.

I also found out today we have Music Theory II test on Wednesday. She cancelled our last Wednesday's class because she was sick... so we basically found out about the test TODAY. I have no idea what to expect or what format it will be... unlike usual.

My final stress is on my lesson for Thursday. Lessons are becoming stressful. I prepare the materials and everything (usually) sounds great. But he's picking out tiny things (that need to be picked on) that he would usually let slide with others. His major concern is with how TENSE and tight my fingers and grip are on the clarinet. This causes problems with lots of other things... If my fingers are tense and basically, banging the clarinet, then it's obviously moving. Moving (therfore movement in the mouth) is bad. So, I'm trying to fix it. But it seems I can't. It's so stressful... sometimes I want to throw things. He's understanding obviously, but I just want to be able to do what he's saying in a snap. A quick fix. I feel like I'm letting him down, I guess.

eh. I need to go do something or go to sleep. One of the two.